Gia wanted to tell me something, but then said nevermind.

I asked her what.

She said it was something I probably didn't want to know about Dad. Her dad, the ex, DPH. I said "what?"

She was looking through his desk and...

"You found naked pictures."

Gia: "YES! It made me feel sick!"

You have to understand that this isn't just a casual porn thing. DPH downloaded porn 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. I lived there. I used to get in trouble for disconnecting the phone line during the day so that I could get on the computer. We had two phone lines.

The worst part is that Gia and Cath were beside themselves because I was emailing him telling him to at least put it someplace where they weren't going to come across it.

I said in my email to him kids are kids and they're going to find stuff if it's not locked up. I said they shouldn't have to know about his porn addiction. They shouldn't. And the fact that they're afraid they're going to get in trouble for HIS error in judgement is fucked.

Gia said "Is this why you divorced him?"

I said there were many factors that I just wasn't going to get into. They don't have to know. They're finding out for themselves slowly, but surely.

It takes two for a bad relationship, I know what my part is. But man, he's just icky. He gets worse as he gets older.

I went to a meeting at school and he was there. I was talking to him and noticed right away that there was this huge bump in between his eyes. It was very hard to not stare at this thing. Cyst? It was HUGE. Skin colored, not really a zit. I tried avoiding it, but I wanted to really ask what it was and have a conversation about it. I wanted to ask if it had a name and if it was going to apply for US citizenship.

This thing could've been its own country. I wanted to slowly back away and start screaming.

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